A Letter for My Mom

How am I supposed to live without you Mom? 

I thought I have been strong so far, and it’s already almost your 100 days leaving us, and I just realize that I am still weak. I cried every time I remember your last day. I thought, it was just your ordinary day, I never think that it was your last hug for me. I miss you more than life. 

I felt relieved when you three times coming to my dream. You showed me how you are happy now there so I am happy for you too. I am also glad in your third visit in my dream, you hugged me and said that you love me. I love you 3000 Mom. 

Every time I think about you, I played “Runaway” Song by Aurora, so God can take me home where I belong (the home where you exist now Mom so we can get together again), I got no other place to go.

I felt empty without you Mom, you are my gasoline to run. Without you, I became insane and probably lost my soul. Every day I repeatedly write down on my note, what things today that can make me motivated to live. Until now I can not get the best answer, because it’s only you, you are my angel who kept me sane.

Mom, even though it seems like I can't wait to see you. For now, I am not confident yet whether I already have the ticket to meet you. How if I arrive in different destination, not in the same home like you. So, Mom, wait me until it’s my time, I will try to live with my best, because you are the reason.

Kindly, Al-Fatihah for my Mom, Ibunda Hj. Siti Muniroh binti H. Husein,

Bismillahir-rahmanir-rahim

Al-hamdu lillahi rabbil-'alamin

Ar-rahmanir-rahim

Maliki yaumid-din

Iyyaka na'budu wa iyyaka nasta'in

Ihdinas-siratal-mustaqim

Siratallazina an'amta 'alaihim gairil-magdubi 'alaihim wa lad-dallin